valentines and limbo

so, it's the dreaded and beloved valentine's day, and yes, they do celebrate it here in the great white north (tho not as "great white" as the whole eastern seaboard, you guys got creamed, ha ha!). since canuck and i are broke and poor, we've decided not to exhange formalities this year, but i did send him a racy little e-card to get him into the valentine's spirit. i'm on the fence about this whole "holiday" thing to be honest with you. i mean, it's nice to have a day dedicated to expressing your love for your significant other, friends, and family, and i like to take the time to do something a little extra special (though you should express your love everyday, blah blah blah, i know). like tomorrow, since i'm working late tonite, i'm going to make a special dinner for the family, topped off with a two-tiered, heart-shaped red velvet cake (a culinary first for me, wish me luck!), and we're going to decorate the table with fun heart-shaped confetti and dora printed valentines (cookie's touch). on the other hand, i do agree when people get annoyed and say that it has been turned into a commercial frenzy, when high maintenance individuals come to expect lavish gifts and crap just for the sake of it and because everyone else is doing it. that kinda, no REALLY irritates me. did you know that there really was a saint valentine, that he existed in early roman times, and that like all the people from back then that were canonized saints, he was a christian martyr? ugh, twelve years of catholic school, i know my saints! but i guess we choose to celebrate or not celebrate in our own ways. i fall somewhere in the middle. here's a link to some valentine's trivia. hate the holiday? that's okay, but read it anyway, you just might learn something new...

work's picking up, treatment planned some new patients and i have a couple more coming in today. i'm going to make heart-shaped sandwich cookies for the staff, well, because i like them and i love to bake, and hopefully it'll send some good dental karma my way. it's funny, i was thinking this as i was walking back to the subway last nite - i really like it here, but i still feel this vague sense of detachment, almost like it's not real that i live here now and have a job here and all that. at the same time, i love and miss new york but i just can't picture myself living there any more. i'm not homesick, but i'm not quite settled either. i'm happy to be here, but just a tad disoriented. i guess i'm in.....limbo! it's a very strange feeling, this sense of pseudo reality. i think once things pick up the pace a bit at work for canuck and me and we start looking for houses, this place will start to feel like home for real.

gotta run, have to start baking! have a happy one, guys!